Header and icons@Noyo aka Linn

I am just there! In the corner! In the shadows! Hiding in the darkness! Trying to make the voices stop, trying to silence the agony! And you are there too! Only not in the darkness! You are in the light! In the light that blinds me! A light that comes form above, from below, from the sides! From everywhere! You are a painful light! A light trying to expose me! to make me feel vulnerable and alone! Naked in front of you!
With no illusions and no masks to conceal the sorrow and the solitude!
Just looking with those deep blue eyes of yours! Just looking, trying to see right through me! See right through my defenses! Everything i have constructed with effort to make the pain go away, you came and you broke it down! Smiling, grinning, laughing! The sound of your laughter hurts my ears! Makes my heart bleed! And still you are there! you stay! you linger a little longer to taste my defeat! Taste your triumph!
I wonder, do you understand? Do you even know what defeat is? Only one who has been defeated before can really grasp the utter destruction you spread!
I try to yell, i try to scream and still no sound comes out of my mouth! Your laughter is the only sound!That and from time to time the sound of my heart beating! Throbbing!
Do you know?

Can you hear me? Can you feel me? If I bleed again will you be there to heal me?
Cos, I’m feeling so numb
I am feeling so dumb
Since you are not there

And everyone stares
But nobody cares
Am I even there?

Am I even there?
Do I have to care?
Cos everyone stares
But nobody cares
Am I even there?

PS: The lyrics were also mine!